to be filled with endless energy and curiousity, i cannot remember what that's like. she looks at my bed and sees a trampoline. my bed is my refuge. it's hours of rest. my haven.
this year is a big year for our family. we face work situations that constantly make us think about where we are now and where we want to be. in september kira will start her most important high school year. elsie will start kindergarten. though it's only a little chunk of time daily, i will start to think about where i want to be, where my dreams are headed. the thought of them all in school makes my head spin and my heart hurt a little. when els goes i will have been a stay at home mom for SIXTEEN years. so then to think of me and where i want to be while they are busying their minds, sometimes makes me want to crawl into that bed but then again, at times, i want to jump. i will embrace both emotions :)
Your bed looks like a cloud! She is definitely growing up so fast. Love your wall too.
Posted by: Kate J. | January 11, 2011 at 12:40 PM
I need to come to your house and jump with you, then take a nap on your bed :)
Posted by: Chanda | January 11, 2011 at 01:15 PM
...and I'm excited for you.
Posted by: tere | January 11, 2011 at 01:19 PM
this post makes my heart hurt a little!
Posted by: chris | January 11, 2011 at 01:36 PM
i am in the same situation. 3 kids, 11 years at home, what to do next. please pass on any advice or discoveries.
Posted by: Gioconda | January 11, 2011 at 02:08 PM
love these shots! I totally relate-what to do where to go & what is the right choice-love you ! I am ready to jump with you!!
Posted by: Rachael | January 11, 2011 at 03:07 PM
she is too cute! and growing so fast! i've been lurking on your blog for a little while now, but never said hello! just had to let you know that you and your family are quite adorable :)
Posted by: Justine | January 11, 2011 at 03:50 PM
big changes for sure! good luck!
Posted by: marcy | January 11, 2011 at 08:21 PM
love your bed and those photos.((:
Posted by: Stephanie Mah | January 12, 2011 at 01:54 AM
love the garland on the wall - makes for a fun photo. :)
Posted by: Kim Gibson | January 12, 2011 at 05:11 PM
love these photos!
i can so relate...
i have been home with my "babies" for 16 years and my youngest is in school full time now...
not sure "what i want to be when i grow up"... i know i want to do something creative~but i am nervous about re-entering "the work force"...lol
do you mind if i asked where your bedding it from? love it!
xoxo
-p
Posted by: patty | January 13, 2011 at 06:32 AM
well I think you should do more with photography! maybe newborns, preschoolers! while she is gone!!!
xoxo
tara
Posted by: tara pollard pakosta | January 13, 2011 at 10:47 AM
aw~. i was debating between that bedding, the cream rivulets or the grey rosette ones. it looks even more super cute in real life. well, i mean not quite real life but more real than the online photos. i just haven't quite justified spending $300 on something that i know is going get dirty really fast. but now it's so much more tempting now seeing how much fun elsie is having on it. i can't believe how LONG her hair is now!! have a great week!
Posted by: keri | January 13, 2011 at 01:58 PM
Hi my friend, and happy 2011.
Your little Els looks so beautiful in your big cozy bed. :)
Good luck on all your decissions.
xo
gudrun
Posted by: gudrun | January 16, 2011 at 04:00 PM
well written jame. xoxox
Posted by: ming | January 19, 2011 at 04:46 PM
Oooh...I know so well how this feels. I sent my baby to school last year, and thought I would love having lots of time for "me". Turns out it was lonely, and unproductive, and sometimes disheartening too. I've just started some part time work, doing something totally different that what I did before kids (14 years ago)...and I love it!
Best of luck with your decisions. Take your time if you can afford to...it helps :)
Posted by: suzitee | January 21, 2011 at 02:44 AM